This is Us
I've been having this recurring feeling. I guess it's actually a recurring mixture of feelings. The words I have to describe it include gratitude, calmness, contentment... and I'm sure there are others... Occasionally, I can't help but look at my current life and mental state and compare it to who I was 2 years ago, 3 years ago, 4 years ago... At that time, my life at PerfectServe had overtaken every ounce of my being and monopolized everything that was supposed to be mine. My time, my thoughts, my sleep, my relationships, my family. It all belonged to that company. I had overwhelming anxiety - I woke up in the middle of every night feeling panic. I traveled non-stop. I missed way too much time with my kids - ballgames, school events, mornings, nights. I felt angry at the world that I couldn't just walk away. I felt completely trapped. While all of this is real, it isn't often that I purposefully dwell on the negative feelings. I had so many good years at Pe